This is a trans exploration (in the dark)


(I prefer it)     (Nothing complete)     (The nothing)

It is outrageous how unpublished I am

      Outrages me.


That tenacity (exculpatory)

      The device of course

            Ink all over my body

The secretary (spelled wrong) all the

children of all the fathers want to spill

ink all over (O’Hara) ———

      What a woman is.

            How she becomes.

      Interesting to note: the differences.

What + why.

            Forgotten. The basement. The cellar.

Who + cares.


                                    (I always do)

Amelia Ada is the author of the book-length poem Hard and Glad, forthcoming from DOPAMINE/Semiotext(e) in 2026. Her poems and essays have appeared widely, and she is the co-host of the podcast You Shouldn’t Let Poets Lie To You. She lives in Los Angeles, where she is a PhD candidate at the University of Southern California. Read more at amelia-ada.com.