all the trees will fall down
// The stain appeared as a starry pattern
after the wash, imprint of heavy zinc diaper ointment
scattered by a spin cycle, surprise spray of dots and
splatter over my black pants, black shirt, black bra
// Penumbra // Grey sky, grey rain
// I wait for an email from you
but you are dead // Refresh the water bowl and
the cat hops down, dips her broad paw into the pool
before lowering her mouth // But I left my country
a long time ago, and even there I was a stranger
// Luminescence of the soul
// When I was a child, the teacher
took me aside in the hall
told me I didn’t belong // And her words
felt like some glance // Into another world,
skewed inclusion fraught with promise
// As though she perceived the secret sense
// That a spirit haunts my left ear, plunks pebbles off
the freaky edge of nothing, into my dream
// That I would live a double life,
always outside // I wash a very large sheet pan
in a very small sink // Slopping soapy
shining oily swaths across
// It’s the people who think they have no accent
whose accents are most distinct // Would that you would
// A rotted porch step, and underneath: a break // In reality
// The world doesn’t exist to amplify or exemplify our own
preexisting tastes, values, or predilections.
It simply exists // A small, smooth, and rounded stone
// The solitary person in the library
talking to herself repeats this was not a good day,
this was not a good day // And she’s right
// But today the poem is my list // A thump deeply felt,
as though in my soul, I look up
and ask the house, Yes? // Worn by the action
of water, ice, or sand // A person with thin ankles stops
at the intersection, peers into their phone,
before tentatively advancing in a direction
// As though any direction will do
// Pattern of triangles looping along the ceiling
like angle angels loping // Later I discover
a box of cat food cans thumped on the front step
// The children point to every character in the illustration,
regardless of age, gender, or race, and exclaim,
There’s Daddy! // Drops of perspiration
would slip the glass surface and pool down darkening wood
// Like pebbles that, when you touch them,
disperse // Griffin monster in lacework sleeve
// Red eyes represent urgency, prophetic vision,
being stoned, or just exhaustion // The screen lights up,
brightened by a message
after the wash, imprint of heavy zinc diaper ointment
scattered by a spin cycle, surprise spray of dots and
splatter over my black pants, black shirt, black bra
// Penumbra // Grey sky, grey rain
// I wait for an email from you
but you are dead // Refresh the water bowl and
the cat hops down, dips her broad paw into the pool
before lowering her mouth // But I left my country
a long time ago, and even there I was a stranger
// Luminescence of the soul
// When I was a child, the teacher
took me aside in the hall
told me I didn’t belong // And her words
felt like some glance // Into another world,
skewed inclusion fraught with promise
// As though she perceived the secret sense
// That a spirit haunts my left ear, plunks pebbles off
the freaky edge of nothing, into my dream
// That I would live a double life,
always outside // I wash a very large sheet pan
in a very small sink // Slopping soapy
shining oily swaths across
// It’s the people who think they have no accent
whose accents are most distinct // Would that you would
// A rotted porch step, and underneath: a break // In reality
// The world doesn’t exist to amplify or exemplify our own
preexisting tastes, values, or predilections.
It simply exists // A small, smooth, and rounded stone
// The solitary person in the library
talking to herself repeats this was not a good day,
this was not a good day // And she’s right
// But today the poem is my list // A thump deeply felt,
as though in my soul, I look up
and ask the house, Yes? // Worn by the action
of water, ice, or sand // A person with thin ankles stops
at the intersection, peers into their phone,
before tentatively advancing in a direction
// As though any direction will do
// Pattern of triangles looping along the ceiling
like angle angels loping // Later I discover
a box of cat food cans thumped on the front step
// The children point to every character in the illustration,
regardless of age, gender, or race, and exclaim,
There’s Daddy! // Drops of perspiration
would slip the glass surface and pool down darkening wood
// Like pebbles that, when you touch them,
disperse // Griffin monster in lacework sleeve
// Red eyes represent urgency, prophetic vision,
being stoned, or just exhaustion // The screen lights up,
brightened by a message
Note
“The world doesn’t exist to amplify or exemplify…”: Maggie Nelson, On Freedom: Four Songs of Care and Constraint. (Minneapolis: Graywolf Press, 2021).
“A small, smooth, and rounded stone”: OED, s.v. “pebble.”
tumescent summer sky [// A stranger enters the house,]
all the trees will fall down [// Search the quilt,]


