tumescent summer sky [// A stranger enters the house,]
// A stranger enters the house, and their smell,
a sharp sprig of parsley, lemon-bright, pierces
the muddled cup of homely smells // Today I find
the cracked cap of the egg,
blue, smooth and glossy, on the ground under her nest
// After being bedbound with illness, I gasp to see
the relentless progression of time, dandelions in bloom,
dandelions in fluffy seed, tiny white and blue lawn flowers,
branches dipping into regions of sun and
shade, a swallow dives through the scene,
my mother’s voice on the phone // The main predators of
robin’s eggs are blue jays, crows, snakes, squirrels //
Buttery radiance of evening sun // The shucked shell of a cat claw,
hooked, hornlike, hollow, resembles a goblet for
a goblin // D texts, which cheese to buy, or
both // When marriage’s exchanges turns us into
deliverers of lists // Cats as matching circles
side by side // What is my smell, what is the smell of
this house // I’m the king of the castle, Mommy’s
a dirty rascal! // I’ve lived in certain apartments
where the smell of place was so distinct and indelible,
in closets and cupboards, that although
the smell would recede from notice in daily life, when I returned
from a trip, there it was again
// Whether the feminine has an unconscious
or whether it is the unconscious // A kid on a scooter
comes careening around the corner // As though the
smell were the reality of that apartment, a truth that could be
ignored in the dulling habits of routine,
but which became plain fact again
with a little distance // A butterfly
orange and black rests on a leaf, slowly
opening and closing its wings // New summer
in the leaves, new sun, new leaves, wet earth,
car exhaust, cigarette smoke // Do not mow! Native garden
// A worn wish / a belt loop / a crimson flannel bodice
// Then is a little distance the truth lens to this ungainly telescope
// I adjust the star diagonal // How many
days can I not write the email // A woman
pushing two children in a stroller stops mid-intersection
to scream at the car, How long are you going to
take to make that turn? // Forget
the truth of things or choose not to see
// The vast depths of her rage, she unleashes
// Turning back at the threshold to take one more look,
and remembering, Oh // She roars, and
she is mythic // Today the sky is flat
grey with little variation // Reflections within reflections,
one window to another window speaks // Sometimes I
say yes when I cannot understand what the children
say, and they sometimes are satisfied by
my affirmation, but sometimes they seem to guess
my uncertainty, or think my
agreement improbable, so they say
the indecipherable sentence again more insistently,
again the same vociferance
syllable for syllable, consonantal peaks and hallooing hollows
more firmly articulated // A thought
rushes faster than the music, thumping out ahead of the beat
// Against against against // The dress will fit
perfectly, I can tell as it hangs on the rack,
while the salesperson boasts that it has remarkably little
fabric, but I am rushing because I need to go spelunking
for my mother who is somewhere in this
subterranean labyrinth of
interconnected retail outlets,
supine on a scaffold, washing display windows
// A possibility opens under the surface
of things, not necessarily for
comprehension, but for the availability of
some other mode of understanding, through
relation // A little distance // Again
murmur, Mmm hmm
a sharp sprig of parsley, lemon-bright, pierces
the muddled cup of homely smells // Today I find
the cracked cap of the egg,
blue, smooth and glossy, on the ground under her nest
// After being bedbound with illness, I gasp to see
the relentless progression of time, dandelions in bloom,
dandelions in fluffy seed, tiny white and blue lawn flowers,
branches dipping into regions of sun and
shade, a swallow dives through the scene,
my mother’s voice on the phone // The main predators of
robin’s eggs are blue jays, crows, snakes, squirrels //
Buttery radiance of evening sun // The shucked shell of a cat claw,
hooked, hornlike, hollow, resembles a goblet for
a goblin // D texts, which cheese to buy, or
both // When marriage’s exchanges turns us into
deliverers of lists // Cats as matching circles
side by side // What is my smell, what is the smell of
this house // I’m the king of the castle, Mommy’s
a dirty rascal! // I’ve lived in certain apartments
where the smell of place was so distinct and indelible,
in closets and cupboards, that although
the smell would recede from notice in daily life, when I returned
from a trip, there it was again
// Whether the feminine has an unconscious
or whether it is the unconscious // A kid on a scooter
comes careening around the corner // As though the
smell were the reality of that apartment, a truth that could be
ignored in the dulling habits of routine,
but which became plain fact again
with a little distance // A butterfly
orange and black rests on a leaf, slowly
opening and closing its wings // New summer
in the leaves, new sun, new leaves, wet earth,
car exhaust, cigarette smoke // Do not mow! Native garden
// A worn wish / a belt loop / a crimson flannel bodice
// Then is a little distance the truth lens to this ungainly telescope
// I adjust the star diagonal // How many
days can I not write the email // A woman
pushing two children in a stroller stops mid-intersection
to scream at the car, How long are you going to
take to make that turn? // Forget
the truth of things or choose not to see
// The vast depths of her rage, she unleashes
// Turning back at the threshold to take one more look,
and remembering, Oh // She roars, and
she is mythic // Today the sky is flat
grey with little variation // Reflections within reflections,
one window to another window speaks // Sometimes I
say yes when I cannot understand what the children
say, and they sometimes are satisfied by
my affirmation, but sometimes they seem to guess
my uncertainty, or think my
agreement improbable, so they say
the indecipherable sentence again more insistently,
again the same vociferance
syllable for syllable, consonantal peaks and hallooing hollows
more firmly articulated // A thought
rushes faster than the music, thumping out ahead of the beat
// Against against against // The dress will fit
perfectly, I can tell as it hangs on the rack,
while the salesperson boasts that it has remarkably little
fabric, but I am rushing because I need to go spelunking
for my mother who is somewhere in this
subterranean labyrinth of
interconnected retail outlets,
supine on a scaffold, washing display windows
// A possibility opens under the surface
of things, not necessarily for
comprehension, but for the availability of
some other mode of understanding, through
relation // A little distance // Again
murmur, Mmm hmm
Note
“Whether the feminine has an unconscious …”: Luce Irigaray, This Sex Which Is Not One, trans. Catherine Porter and Carolyn Burke (Ithaca, NY: Cornell University Press, 1985).
all the trees will fall down [// Search the quilt,]
all the trees will fall down [// The stain appeared]


